About a year ago, I made a blog post on my old blog called "Holiday Depression", and I wanted to reiterate the points I made last year, because I have many more followers now, and this is an important message.
I feel like the holidays pressure people into being happy. The Christmas lights, the festive music, the gifts and all the cheesy, holiday movies: all of these represent excitement and joy, and sometimes it can be hard when your personal feelings do not reflect how the media says you should feel.
Holiday depression is a reality for a lot of people, and I feel like we don't talk about it enough. Holiday depression can emerge out of a number of things: separation from family (divorce, distance...), a close death, bad childhood memories revolving around the time, etc. My holiday blues stem out of familial separation. My parents moved to Japan right after I graduated high school, and this is my third Christmas away from them. Every year, I struggle to be on my own during the holidays. While I have multiple second families that are wonderful and welcoming during this period, it's still not the same. Christmas is a very family oriented holiday, and it's easy to feel like a burden. It feels wrong to be so sad during such a bright and exciting time.
If anyone is struggling with holiday depression this season, this post is my way of reaching out to you, and telling you that you are not alone, and that your feelings are valid. It is okay to not be okay, even during "the most wonderful time of the year". It is so important to remember that not everyone experiences the holidays the same way. Right now, I am not okay, and I am coming to accept that. If anyone needs to chat, you can always DM me on my Instagram @blackdenimchic or email me at email@example.com, and we can talk about being sad, or we can talk about everything but being sad.